June 14, 2005

Shut Me Up...

Haven’t been posting lately, why?
the pointlessness of existence has been weighing me down.

I’m phenomenally frustrated with my life & my country.

Why do you ask? (I can sense your suspense from here.)

I could point to the weather, it’s sucked around here pretty regularly for the past 2 months. Or, I could point to never having enough money to do as much as I’d like to do.

Or I could point to the impotence I feel as this country(and world) goes right straight to hell.

We are no longer a nation of the proud, the strong. Now we are a nation of victims, weak and pathetic. Yet at the same time we are a bully in the world field. Americans would rather sue someone than own up to their own mistakes. We are regressing into an adolescent nation. We are spoiled rich bastard children, wanting everything handed to us, not understanding that things need to be earned.
Yet at the same time there are quiet multitudes who do just that. They work hard, only to get fucked by some asshole who would rather take the quick handout, demanding ‘their right’ while taking what has been earned from those who have earned it.

We’re, as a nation, forgetting what the true freedoms are, the ones that really matter. Being able to get something super-sized is not a freedom our forefathers fought for. Being able to speak your mind in public is. But now we have segregated ‘free speech zones’ at any function that may be controversial and have protesting. Last time I checked, I thought we were supposed to have 50 full states which were considered ‘free speech zones’. But apparently I was mistaken.

And I don’t think Jefferson penned the bill of rights with the right to sue someone who ‘made my coffee too hot’ in mind. But I’m pretty sure he was serious about that protection from ‘unreasonable search & seizure’ bit.

And I feel like we are entering into a new epoch of religious fervor, where logic & protection from the bigotry, that swarms around religious institutions like flies around a bloated carcass, are becoming luxuries of the past. But hey, why should I complain? We got a few good centuries, out of the whole of human existence, relatively free from assholes who feel it is their ‘god given right’ to dictate how you and I HAVE to live our daily lives. Maybe nazi’s will be back in vogue soon too.

And every day I hear about another environmental horror visited upon this nice little bit of fluff. And watch as our great leader, with his ‘mandate’, sits back to take a bold lead of indifference, or better yet, proactively helping with the destruction of all other life on earth.

6+ billion of us fuckers are crawling around on this ever depreciating pile of dirt, spreading our noxious disease, and making sure no territory goes unmarked by our filth. And I’d be lying if I said I did much myself to make things better.

But, I’m impotent. Erectile dysfunction of the progressive action. Like my fellow americans I’ve mastered the art of turning a blind eye to the bigger picture, wrapping our heads in a fuzzy blanket of the mundane. Blowing up our personal drama, as if they actually matter. Maybe it’s a defense mechanism, maybe it’s just not possible for someone to try & comprehend just how fucked up this world really is.

Oh, and I know what I could do and just how fucking futile it is.

-De

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